Saturday, September 4, 2010

My friends love story

My friend expressed his heart to me, many of which he mentioned about his girlfriend .. but I just can be loyal listener ... I do not know what to say and this story about he and his girlfriend.
This all the word and phase I found life journey I will continue go far much I had in me, but I hate to be Alone. I please, I beg, I don’t want to feel alone along my journey, I may be a day dream I don’t want to talk, walk, sleep, drink, eat, and do ALONE cause I tired of this. Is hurt & cry me a lot and all I want is to be Love with someone I care the most but I don’t want love force.

I will share my story in hope u may understand well too.

MY FIRST GIRL I ASK TO BE MY GIRLFRIEND

It happen when I just started diploma. I come to college about briefing of rule and types of diploma level. Before start brief, I start to talk other people is going same branch even is different diploma, just want to know name and want diploma they choose.

After the brief, the worker asks us group together with other student with same diploma level as I. In the end I find out they are not many they 4 guy 5 girls for now but enough to have friend until end of diploma but only 3 manage to finish diploma that include me, guy and girl.

Yes the girl manage to finish diploma is the girl I ask to my girlfriend. Her name is Cassie D, she very quiet, sleepless, and sick. It sometime make wonder how her life are. So start intro myself to her just want to be friend and slow get to know her well better.

But at first I thought she scary but she kind in her ways. 2 week after briefing, Cassie D decide to give up of diploma when she tell me directly, I can’t remember y but I remember I tell this “In live we can live once, what we do or try in own life we must not give up or give in, so one day we can be better then tomorrow. Cassie D if can’t c u tomorrow in college that fine with me but promise me our friendship never end cause I believe u have not give up cause u can better then what are u now ok Cassie D, bye!!!”

After what I say to her, saw her 2 day later in college I say “u still here! Well is good to c your smile again”. In somehow I don’t know why I say that maybe is just I start to like her bit. Time pass by, third semester I going having mid term exam but I got problem. I have not study art history noooooooo because she borrows the book I should study. She Photostat the book on Saturday and she invite me to join her, so join her on that Saturday.

In morning I met she at building call Central Point, we walk together to print shop to Photostat the book she borrow from me but it take time finish Photostat the book. In time, we went to go have lunch in building and we talk-talk about exam, her and myself. After lunch we went for walk around the build for window shopping until she bring me somewhere quite and place to sit, I guess she tired walking. We sit next each other and talk while she takes out a box of smoke.

She start lent me smoke but I say no, I tell I ok with people smoke so I don’t mine she smoke around me. We talk and talk. At that time I saw her how beauty and cool she was back then but she cough since she was young. I wish I can do for her but I can do is wish and prayer for her. After we finish talking we held to print shop for get the book, her say thank you to me, I say take care, good luck with your exam and health. On that day was first time a girl asks me out, I wish we can sit together and talk like always but that wish end that day. I still wonder if accept one cigarette from her that she afford to me, will she accept me?

Time has pass by and I and her rarely to meet, and we meet just like “Hai and bye”. During fifth semester, we final start same subject that is advertising subject. I have decide to ask her to been my girlfriend, the situation is the lecture in class are they four student, I sit next to her while the other two sit different far away. I start talk to her:

Me: Cassie D.
Cassie D: yes.
Me: I got something to tell u.
Cassie D: Apa dia?
Me: Kc wills you been my girlfriend?


She looks surprise and at a moment she smile to me say
Cassie D: Why me?
It took me a while to answer her I say
Me: Is you girl who try hard to live up, you are girl I want share love and I really like u deep. If u want take time is ok with me cause I wait until say yes to me. I will won’t force u cause u are free to choose and that what like u the most.

After that we stop talk and focus study, from that day until I finish study we met like a friend even I wait her answer I don’t mine cause like to stay friend with her cause I never find a girl who kind to me, a open my heart to her. And that day I will always remember her birthday, I send message try know how she been doing lately since 2008.

On middle 2008, I finish my study and find trouble of my future until I decide to go KL for further study with two friends of mine same batch to study. At end of 2008 I was going to Berjaya Times Square alone for walking after the class is was during the raya season where a lot people. Go to a book store find a book until I saw her when I was on escalator went up but she went down then she saw me. We keep see eye to eye until I at the first floor while she on the ground and I keep asking myself whether is Cassie D cause is first time saw her in skirt she look waoh but I ran out the build just take my breath, I didn’t go to book store.

From that day I wonder the girl saw at Berjaya Times Square is her, until I got message from her where I was at one utama bus stop on end of 2009. She asking about the program that I take to further study, I say was risky, hard and regret but I tell her not to join this program cause I don’t want to regret but her choice. Then I ask her about the girl I saw at Berjaya Times Square is her, she say yes was her. I was surprise and regret that I didn’t say hai but I ran, but I say her that she looks good in skirt then she laugh. We talk on phone until I forgot to ride the bus and was last bus, in the end I walk home huh!

On her birthday 2009, I was at Berjaya Times Square walking alone see many couple, I wish that I have one too, I send her a message wish her happy birthday, talk about past between us and her last message was
“okey thank wi. U very gud fren of mine::-)”

If remember I sent last message was like this:
“My heart never change I will be
the same person u know me
I still like u, best wish 2 u”

I still continues message her when is need and latest was about face book and let her know my birthday.

On 30th June 2010, whether is fine went to college to settle about my training then later go buy flash for my camera. On a way to office I walking see a lot new student, then I stop I saw her and she saw me. We start smile each other and we talk why she here in this college and where stay? She said take degree graphic design and stay far a bit where I stay. Then we talk about me and her, said to her if want to go somewhere and got problem I will help as much I and friend can help she, after that I will take time send message time by time cause I don’t hush her I must be patience and my chance to show her how much I can take care her.

On 10th August 2010 the misunderstanding

Her: hai wi, ha? sy belum tunangla. Maybe c izal misunderstood tu. hehe, funny.

Me: Yakah oh last saturday i chat with him, he say u bertunang so i nak taniah u saja hehe funny is it?

Her: Ya...:-)

Me: Oh ya u delete fb ke or tutup? Cause tak nampak u dlm friend list i?

her: delete dah.. Mau buat baru.Tp blum ada masa. Hehe

tamat sms
After that I feel great and guilty because I chance fall love with her and not believe in her, well I guess I should have my love is patient and passion.

27th August 2010, I went to college to submit letter to lecture for update about training and same time find her. When I look a board News I saw her name on board News I gift a sms to know she ok? She ok n want advice. So I want to meet her, but she sms me is ok no need, she want to go back to subang to stay with her sister. The last sms to her is

oh word adise bersabar just call for help u not alone (^_^)

28th August 2010, evening I went to SIB to meet friend, say hi, talk junior from college, talk kid want to go college as graphic student I give a word advise and so on. When is finish program, the SIB welcome newcomer when I saw projector is a name of girl I like so I wait exit door so I can hold and same time think was someone else. In the end is her, she saw me as I saw her we smile each other, I approach to her to say hi as well she say hi to me. After that they two girls between her look me like want me to say something while her drinking then:

I say "u not in subang now"
she say "tak jadi pergi I stay"
I say "Oh!!. r u okay?"

Silent Aura around us as i look around and i saw Kat so i say hi n
clap with her then:

she "Bah Wi i balik dulu bye Wi"
I say "ya bye "

she keep smile at me as is one day we meet we can talk for sometime to time. I hope in future i try to talk calmly with her but still i i i i don't whyyyy i so shy to talk to her aaarrrgh whyyyy???. I send sms to

is good to c u again, cute smile u have n have nice dream ya

After i send this sms i feel shy again n why can't i say like just like sms to she????. Well to tell the true i want to hug her give a kiss on her fore head even we are friend but i will ask again but not as girlfriend but as a future wife that one day we can live lifely together but now we are friend stay connect to SMS for her she special to me. I will a accept her in every way she are and be true yourself Cassie D

Cassie D if reading this story please respond to me I want you to know that I don’t like u no more but I love you.

So I prayer for u for heath and hope that we meet again I will be better person. Yes I do for you I will help much I have because i really love u.

Yes this real story be continues in life & I don’t know what I should do???
This is the story of my friend

me:I said in my heart does not love is beautiful, and why should a grievance in love ... is my love will last? I am afraid, very afraid I was so very worried about my relationship.